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So I decided I wanted to share some personal things going on in my life. This is my little outlet and a way for me to express myself. I will go much more in-depth, but I will share the summary first so in case you find it pointless for this time in your own life. I tend to really love summaries so here we go because the rest is lengthy. {Lol}

 God

Work-out

Love Dare

 As most of you know I am a sinner. I do it daily and never once have I proclaimed to be perfect (I am not by many means). I strive daily now to put God first and to surround my life with his glory and that is the best I can do. With time I am sure my faith will grow and I will be even better at it but for now I am just going to keep moving forward and try. For years I lived a much more crazy life and made a lot of mistakes {not all bad though because I learned a lot of great life lessons and have no regrets}. One big thing comes to mind – God decided to bless me with a child. This is the only way we thought of it considering me and my hubby had only been engaged for 3 months. We were nowhere near at a place in our life for children and I was on the ~Not so Effective Birth Control~ Obviously and we used other protection (probably TMI). But I am trying to make the point we never planned our blessing but God knew and he gave us her. Because that sweet baby he blessed me with has become the entirety of my life, my soul walking before me. She makes me want to be a better person, she makes me want to work harder, be stronger, and just feels my entire chest with a huge love that I can’t even explain because there are no words when I look in her eyes and it is quiet and she just smiles at me. {HUGE run on sentence forgive me} Don’t get me wrong though it has taken a long time to get to this place. It was not the moment she was born that poof I was in love. I am one of THOSE mothers. The dreaded selfish in the beginning, I was not ready for this. I am tired, and I want my life back, blah blah blah, me, me, me. Overtime and prayer my heart changed, I grew up. I did not want to be this awful selfish person that could not love. I worked on this very hard and with time I grew to cherish her and realize I would have been missing out on my purpose for existence in her. I know a lot of mommy’s out there need to hear that to, because so many say the moment I saw them at birth my whole life changed. Which for some that is great you are blessed. Me on the other hand had a very long and hard bout with selfishness and post-partum depression {I am not touching that right now though with a ten foot pole because we could be here all day}. But, God is changing me daily and it started with him giving me a blessing that so many can’t or have lost. I am going to cherish it and share with you so I can keep myself in check and make sure to keep God as my center and raise my daughter in his light. I want her to know so when we all die she is standing in his glory with a white robe and her precious smile and doesn’t ever have to be afraid. The best gift I could ever give her back for what she has given me, my faith back.

“Woah“ Work Out- ( is like how do you top that previous topic)… But, I put them in this order for a reason. I have decided to start back on a huge work out plan to get my body and mind back in shape. I am going to strive everyday to do a spiritual exercise by my devotional and a physical work out for my body throughout the week. I want to cherish the life God has given me. To do this fullest I need to be healthy, happy, and strong. So I am excited and this is going to burn baby burn.

Love Dare- If you have not watched the movie “Fireproof” go rent it today if you are married. God says he gives us a spouse to make us whole again, woman is the rib from mans chest. There is a reason that most people love being in a relationship and don’t enjoy being alone forever. God blessed me with such an amazing man to spend the rest of my life with. He is not perfect by any means but I am learning to love his imperfections as much as his perfections to get to the most fulfilling love God can give us here on earth, behind his glorious love of course. I always thought I loved my husband until I read about the challenge of the love dare and read more books on god’s love in a relationship. I was blown away and decided to get better at something you must practice. So I am putting  the love dare to practice and going to push hard these next 40 days to let go and start loving my spouse the way God built me to love him. Marriage is a gift- it is not easy and it will not always be fun, but it is the best gift God has given me personally to get we where I am today and my blessed child through marriage. I want my baby girl to also know this love exists for her and she will also find a man and a love that is worth the hardships of marriage. God gives this blessing and I want it to always be my blessing so I know anything worth having is worth fighting for and working at. I have attached a link and a little description below if you are interested in this challenge as well.    

http://thelovedarebook.com/index.html

In the movie FIREPROOF, a couple dares to rescue their choking marriage from the flames of divorce and temptation using The Love Dare book as a guide. Now you can take the experience of the film one step further with your own copy of The Love Dare book. This daily devotional steers you through the fiery challenge of developing a strong, committed marriage in a world that threatens to burn it to the ground.

The Love Dare personally leads you through daily devotionals, records your thoughts and experiences, and ends each day daring you to perform a simple act of love for your spouse. This 40-Day journey equips you to melt hardened, separated hearts into an enduring love that can withstand the flames of fear, pride and temptation. The Love Dare book will help you reinforce and enrich your marriage, earn back a love you thought was lost, and hear more about the One who not only designed unconditional, sacrificial love—He illustrated it.

So I made it the whole week, accomplished some small goals and stayed in my happy place 90% of the time. I have found in the last few days looking back at my journal I have a common theme. I Love being in Love! One might think this sounds crazy, but I believe (Just Maybe) that it’s because I am truly happy now. I try and always be happy, but some times I let the gloom in (Not often though). Stress on the other hand, well that bad boy is needing some work he creeps in all to often. This week was wonderful for the fact I got to do some of my all time favorite things.. Party Throwing (pics to come) at my work. I was able to throw a fabulous Wedding Shower for a friend and then a Birthday bash for a Halloween baby. It was a interesting week as well due to the time of year, Benefits time!!.. We had to have the talks, myself and hubby, about some topics benefits options bring about. I am so thankful that he takes the time to open up and tell me how he feels when I don’t understand.

Marriage I am learning, slowly but surely, is very much a give take. I believe some compromise, but not much (or both always feel like they never get what they really wanted they just settle to avoid the issue). I want some compromise on a few things, but mainly I want yes or no and passionately why..It is never easy to tell a spouse something they would not like to hear, but trust me better today then 10 years from now when your bitter and resentful. I like to just throw it out there, people are stronger than you think, most don’t just crumble into pieces and dissipate at a rejection. In my young marriage I feel so great about this week, because we overcame a big wall and came out so much stronger. I just felt the need to throw that out there this week and share. So if anyone else is in a young marriage and are in hurdles just say what you need to say. People always do better with purity from the heart and honesty from the mind.

Thanks for reading Loves!!

Hello World!!

So I am super emotional today I have no idea why but it happens to the best of us I guess. So what I have found to work for me is to Blog on about it. So here it goes I am just going to throw it out here because I have a yearning desire that I just can’t shake. I want to adopt a international child in the next 5 years. I know this probably sounds crazy to most people, but I can’t help it, and I think about it all the time. It is like this big fat thing I want to tell the world but I feel like I can’t because people have a lot of opinions and may not agree with me. But, I can’t put it out of my mind for months I have been thinking about it and just thinking how there are so many children in the world who have no one and it is breaks my heart. I read all the time about children starving to death and passing away just because they don’t have water. I know you can adopt locally but even the poorest children in America have it better than children parentless in Peru, Brazil, Ethiopia, and Bolivia. I know I can’t cure world hunger but If I can just make a difference in one life I will feel like I helped somehow. Gheez, I am so super sappy today but I had to get it out. Thanks for reading my ranting.

 Sincerely,

Me